broken piece

Relationship is full of challenges, I thought im though, i can accept easily when the man i love will leave me but i was wrong, I learned to loved him,he's my crush before, then we get into a relationship until this day. we broke up. I had to accept it, this is what he wanted, i need to be strong, as i am before.I've encountered alot of challenges in my life and i passed on it.maybe this is one of them, I have to consult myself that maybe God has a better plan for me.

This time i have to think for myself alone, he wont be on my plans and dreams anymore as i used to do it. Before i have to considered him on my plan. now that i alone i have to move on, go on my plan. I was thinking a life with him before but now i need to go on my path.

Its hurt me so much that he leave me, but as like any other girls i have to be strong. i dont like them to see i failed. this is my character.

I miss him and truly will miss him so much, his texts every day when im at work, his message before he go to work, his message after work and i will miss texting him everyday too but in this day everything will change, we wont able to message each other.No more sweet thoughts,

My plan will change also, before i wanted to study because i want us to be together, maybe when i get a better job he wont go to abroad or he will go with me to other country but now i had to plan for my own. I had to start processing my papers along my plan to study,  since i wanted to leave the country after this yr,ill just took my uniting rather than the masteral degree,  for in my uniting i can easily migrate to canada. After this 2012  i wanted to leave the country, leave my past here and find my future in the foreign land. Its so hard  but i have to do this. When i met him my plan became simple but now i had to decide by my own.

Maybe this is Gods plan for me, to help my family first and achieve my dreams without him,  I dont feel any anger for him for doing this to me coz i respect him, This is what he wanted, i wont go after him, this is what i always says, "Emmalyn ur though you can passed thru it" I love him thats why i set him free.

He said he was being heck on the neck but my jealousy, i dont know that he was "nasasakal" i always say that word as  "palalambing" but he mean other things on that  thats why we end up on this, maybe his not a type of guy ng malambing coz as i know to him before, his bully. 

this is our almost 4months relationship ended, July 27-Nov 22 few days left before our 4th months but we end on this.

I wish for him to find a better girl than me, i wish all the betterness in life for him.. may he find the right girl for him.

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My first day during my vacation becames a walkathon

November 06, 2011 when i got in our province,its not a good weather when i got there. Rain starts to pour  so i wasnt able to go out from our house.  Cant do anything just stay on our house with my 2 sisters. my parents and other family members was not at home in our house at the towm proper. My brother my had to picked me up and bring us to our house in the barrio because my parents stayed there.

Along the way on the barrio, we ride on our tricycle but suddenly we got in trouble, my brother need to fixed up the motor in order for us to be able to travel again by used of tricycle,However my brother and I start to get bored so what we do is walk, bring my baggage with us. lol. 

Its a long walk but what is miserable is after of almost half hour walkathon, a few step away from our home, our tricycle along with my brothers and sisters where able to passed by us.lol. this is really a devastating, we wont able to make ahead of them.lol

lesson learned: BE PATIENT  TO WAIT.lol

A walk to remember

Its an special day for my grandparents, their  50th wedding anniversary and my birthday as well. Only  few couples are bless and maintain thier marriage for long time. its their 50 yrs to be together as husband and wife. At this generation you will be bless if you can passed this anniversary.

My grandparents surpassed many trials but their love for each other is their combat. I was so happy that at thier age they still in a good health  and were able to work, live life to the fullest as if problems are not arround.

My lolo is like a general for me, he's very strict in terms of  character, he loves molding his children and grandchildren. I remember when i was a child he used to scold me because of my bad habbit, but soon i realized its for my welfare. When i start studying he always remind what i must do and don't do And now i was working and on the right age, he used to tell me to look for myself. Make my own journey.look for a right path. I admire him coz his very understandable and one attitude i like him is that used to repremand people attitudes and correct them as well.

My lola is like other lola's very sensitive yet jolly one, I truly belief that when person gets old they are more sensitive and like getting attention

For my grandparents Happy golden wedding, I hats on you!

Simple pleasure

          After of almost a year of leaving my hometown, here i came back to spend my 25th birthday and 50th wedding anniversary of my grandparents. We live in poverty but i doesnt been a hindrance for us not to get back on our beloved hometown.Maybe after a months or almost a year of hardship at work, it is right to give our bodies some pleasure.

         Going back on our province is really a enjoying journey. nice place and memorable memories with our companion, people we met through the way. 

         Before you could see a hidden paradise laying at Paluan Occidental Mindoro  your patience will be tested, how long you could cope up with the long journey, riding on a bus going to batanggas port, waiting for the ship for you to get on board for 2 and half hour  or more, then riding on the van for 3 to 4 hours as equivalent of 2 neighboring town. After waiting for long  hours you could see the beauty of God's creation lying beneath the in the rural area of Occidental Mindoro.

life in the province is very simple.Less problem, no pollution, people care for its other. Cost of living in the province is very low. less worries you will have if your a hardworking person. 

thought the road going to our province is not a concrete like in the city but this rough and rocky road will be your way going to the paradise, in the small town of Occidental Mindoro. When you see green and leafy surroundings along your way, your feeling of discomfort will be lessen, Sometimes our surroundings make our feelings more in pain. 

this is a wild flowers, along on our way in "pula" (its a name of the place) i capture this photo. This flower gets my attention. Many of us looks and gives attention to the imported flowers rather than this wild flowers. This flowers is very simple and colorful yet people don't give attention to this.